Could have been worse?

Every cancer is different.  Each person is different.  If you ask many people they would say I was quite different....but that being said.

I have had cancer in the bone for over 5 years.  That's where prostate cancer likes to travel, set up shop, and build there community.  And when it starts building the shopping malls, swimming pools, and transportation hubs, the person is in a deep load of trouble.  I knew of a couple spots and I knew they weren't really getting better since the last treatment didn't do anything, and scans showed disease progression.  I told my doc, I really need to focus on enjoying life and not concentrating on how extensive the bone stuff was.  I have seen pics of people with it all over there bodies and spine, and skulls.  I know that's the direction I guess, but I put it out of my mind.  I saw my pic at the radiation oncologist, and I had 6 spots that could be seen.  They are going to zap 3 of them.  The concerning one is in the hip which is weight bearing.  Don't want that to break.  And I expressed to the doc since we are doing the hip- lets go after a couple more.  Its 10 sessions, over a 2 week period of time.  He agreed.  I like the guy.

At the beginning of the appointment with the radiation guy, since Loyola is a teaching hospital, the resident came in.  He asked me if I knew why I was there.  (inside voice- what kind of stupid question is that), but I went with my outside voice and said, I want to become a chick, I will be a really ugly one, but that is still my goal.  He stopped......looked at me, and then I answered him for real.  I think the answer shook him up some.  And he actually went to tell the doc- hey I got the best answer to......

I titled this could have been worse....because nothing on this is good news......  I got the last PSA back, and the rise is slowing down for some reason.  I am not being treated and the rise was like a rocket ship going to the moon.  So imagine a big spike up- and then a right turn on a graph.  So the progression is slowing down, even without treatment.  And hopefully when treatment starts we see good results.  My guess is the elimination of stress of working is helping a great deal. 

So Monday I go for imaging, so they can set up where to zap me.  Then 2 weeks of zapping, and chemo begins.  I guess its better than the alternative.